Disconnected But Going Somewhere With God

Have you ever been through a period in your life where it seemed like no one listened to you? I have. As a matter of fact, I've been going through this for the last few years and I feel as though I'm at the climax of the experience right now.

I've been thinking about this for a couple of days now because there are certain situations in my life right now where it has become incredibly clear that I am not saying what people want to hear.

I keep thinking that this must be something that God is doing in my life. Lately, I have felt very alone, even when I'm surrounded by people. Something just isn't right and I don't know what it is. I feel very disconnected from my surroundings and the people I normally associate with.

Is God preparing me for a move to a different area? Is God preparing me to let go of the things and people I hold dear so I will only hold Him dear and no other? Is God teaching me to not worry about whether people listen to me or not because it doesn't matter as long as God is listening?

In analyzing myself in this situation, I've asked myself if maybe I talk and write to "entertain" people rather than talk and write to commune with God and teach His message to those who will listen.

I told Tim, my husband, that I feel like God is preparing me for something because "I feel so neutral......so much in limbo." It's the oddest feeling for me to have because I am someone who feels like I have to know where I'm going and what I'm going to do. It's hard for me to "fly by the seat of my pants", but you know, this is how God seems to work in our lives. He plans the whole thing and sometimes only lets you in on parts of His plan. This is simply because we can't handle knowing the whole plan right away. I have to think that we would mess alot of stuff up if we knew everything. All God tells us .......or at least all He tells me......is "Go here and do this". Just out of the blue He announces this stuff to me. I'd be a nut to say No to Him.

At the moment, I have no clue about what He's got planned for me this time, but I don't plan on telling Him No, that's for sure! I'll keep you all updated as I find out the details from Him.

Pray for me.